Thoughts...

How people get an attitude w/u in your crib...

NO one asked you to be here,

you chose to come over!

😶

Haiku: You

You do not live here

Yet, You are always in here

What is it you want

Video: Hard Place

A Rock and a Hard Place...

Note to Self...

From day 1'... the only way this works is open and honest communication. But since the beginning you spoke of friend this friend that, never wanted to say the word girlfriend in my presence or her name. Sad I didn’t even know her name till  she contacted me and because of that and the lack of lines I’m making sure no one has to go through your phone to read this. You know I don’t like being blindsided or made a fool of... so when friends comment on an Instagram pic and I go and see no post! Hm... smh! You block what post I can see on your FB page and now you block me on Instagram, that's new! From the beginning you hid your relationship from me as if there wasn’t one. Why? Cause you were trying to play both sides? Cause you still playing? To piss me off then play dumb and say it wasn’t you? You didn’t know! Told you since day 1 the secrets and lies is what causes problems, deny, deny, deny... I can’t respect secrets and lies. You want me to be comfortable and understanding... I will never with all the secrets and lies. Like I told you the other day... I’m not your old girlfriend, you don’t have to lie to me. You want respect... how... when you act like it’s your dirty little secret. Then you want to talk about boundaries... when you haven’t respected any of mine since we’ve had that conversation. You don’t want to put your relationship status all on social media... ok, but don’t hide stuff on purpose , speak on it sometimes like it's iffy and have your actions show it doesn’t exist. Not even sure if I can even be mad when you showed me this is who you are and I keep thinking you've grown out of it/allowing it. Smh! I'm not your judge or jury, I'm not the big bad wolf you make me out to be, but since I have a lot going on and it's evident that you don't want me to see, hear, speak, or know about this relationship...ok! I will continue to let you do what you do. What relationship? 

Vent- Side Eye

              I think I have perfected my side eye. Which I must say is a very disturbing realization. It is not because I have wanted to or that I enjoy it... It is because of the room of lies around me. Even when some are caught in a lie... deny, deny, deny. It really hurts when it is friends that I have to give the side eye to. If we are friends, I should be the person you are able to tell your secrets to, not feel the need to lie to. I have rolled my eyes to the point where I had to retire that move, now I am ready to retire the side-eye! Just tell the truth!!

"Just when I was going to be bothered... I forgot I was blessed" -LyricSpeak'n

Poem- Who Will Cry?

Video- Wifeable - Masego Ft. Xavier Omar

Quote

"They have stolen the heart from inside you... but don't let that define you, this isn't who you are..."- Moana 

Poem- Second Guess It

Second Guessing

When it's history
You can't delete it, it holds memories

When it's epic
Proof that you had bars

When it's evident
That the love was real

When You may need it
If you get rid of it, it will no longer be there...

Don't do it...
Over a thousand text, containing more than 300 pics
Yep even the x-rated ones
Conversations you won't be able to remember
So then how will you hold him accountable
But it's over, so just delete the thread...

Don't second guess it!

~LyricSpeakn

Lyrics- Lay Me Down

Yes I do, I believe
That one day I will be, where I was
Right there, right next to you
And it's hard, the days just seem so dark
The moon, and the stars, are nothing without you
Your touch, your skin, where do I begin?
No words can explain, the way i’m missing you
Deny this emptiness, this hole that i’m inside
These tears, they tell their own story
-Sam Smith 🎵